Life is a serious matter.

Friday, June 30, 2006

Post exam unusual activity

A view from my room window that i captured after subuh. Subhanallah, it's really beautiful in the real view. I rarely saw this, so i took the chance to photographed it using my phone camera, that's why the quality isn't too good, but it's okay though. =>

I was wondering if that's the Fajr Sadiq...

Verily! In the creation of the heavens and the earth, and in the alternation of night and day, and the ships which sail through the sea with that which is of use to mankind, and the water (rain) which Allâh sends down from the sky and makes the earth alive therewith after its death, and the moving (living) creatures of all kinds that He has scattered therein, and in the veering of winds and clouds which are held between the sky and the earth, are indeed Ayât (proofs, evidences, signs, etc.) for people of understanding. (Al-Baqarah:164)

IK : Subhanallah

Farewell is not The End


Nothing much to say, just a couple of line about our naqib. He just went back yesterday, 29th June-the day we finished our last exam. The flight was at 3.40 pm, so we managed to catch him after the exam to bid him farewell.

The day before yesterday, we met him and gave a farewell card with a CD containing some nasheeds, a video which we make special for his graduation day and some pictures. And we had had a one hour talk, the last halaqah, as we called it. We made it a happy one, although deep inside only Allah knows.

Well, as usual he talked about how we must always be united, no matter what happen, we must always be together. Love our friends like we love ourselves. Help them if they're in need. Help other muslims too, and don't look down on anybody cuz to Allah, they may be better than us. Yeah, this is so true. And the most important thing, he stressed out here, please make du'a, not to ourselves alone, but to every muslims, becuz its only then, that Allah will hear our du'a, insyaAllah.

Anyway, we will never see him again. NEVER. But all his words of advice, will insyaAllah remain forever in our heart. "It is not the person , but the al-ilm, the da'wa, and the knowledge that is the most important to u. People will go and come, that's life and u can't depend your life onto them, depend instead on Allah, because He's the one who made us meet and then made us apart".

InsyaAllah...we will remember that.

Life is traveled only once. Today's moment becomes tomorow's memory. Enjoy every moment, good or bad, and say thank you Allah coz the gift of life is life itself.

My Daily Visitors

They come everyday, they stay, and they never go back. They're always there, from the moment i open my eyes, till i go back to sleep at night. Owh, and they only come during the summer time.

When they arrive, they never say salam, nor do they greet. They come and sit without being ask to, they don't drink, they don't eat. They just stay still, till somehow they're gone, just like that. Either u saw their bodies lying dead unbreathed, unmoved or they just simply vanished from your eyes.

I always wonder, why they don't visit me during the winter, or maybe during the spring or autumn. I always wonder why they came without 'saying anything' and suddenly they're dead unknown?

Oh, and u know where their graves are? Sometimes it's on my table or under my bag, sometimes i saw them dead on the floor, sometimes they just hit me and they fall swaying down, their beautiful wings smashed. I'm sorry, little creatures. Your life is so short, i couldn't even get the chance to know u more.

IK: Your presence, is a sign of His greatness, who created u to make us think and learn that life is very SHORT. And that we're on a very hazardous journey on this dunyia that He can take our life whenever, wherever He want it to be. AllahuAkbar!!

Say: "Is there of your (Allâh's so-called) partners one that originates the creation and then repeats it?" Say: "Allâh originates the creation and then He repeats it. Then how are you deluded away (from the truth)?" (Yunus:34)

Peach Blossom: Europe, across temperate Asia to Japan

Cizara Hawkmoth: Queensland to NSW, AUSTRALIA. Wingspan 2 to 2-3/4 inches

Thursday, June 29, 2006

The Final Breakthrough


Alhamdulillah, finally i managed to get pass through the exams - Phylosophy was easy, Biochemistry, was a tricky one and Physiology, just an inch near the luck! Overall, i'm satisfied. Couldn't ask for more. I've tried my best and the rest - bismillahitawakkaltu... =>

During these 2 weeks of exams, I really run out of scheduled. My sleep became my study time and sometimes my study time became my sleep time. Needless to say, i'm lacking of all the proper nutrition i'm supposed to have. In short, my biological rhythm ran haywire during exams weeks just because to cover all the subjects in two or three days before the exam.

So, don't study last minute! Don't burn the midnight oil! (I'm saying this to myself)

Ironically, that is my study style-six or five days before the exams-i'm comfortable with it, plus it gives me the confident of remembering the things i've read. Oh, believe me, this is how most of my medic friends study. But please bear in mind, unless u're born a genius u can only do this if u pay attention during the classes and lectures. So, what u're doing is just revising! (but i'm totally reading it all back =>).

But the best study method is that , u have to pay attention during the class - learn, understand and memorize- then start ur revision 2 or 3 weeks before the exam and voila, u're as ready as an army!

Owh, in case u love the last minute studying method, this is what i'm doing to cover up all of the topics in the exam.

Fixed Time

Yeah, i fixed my time. No, i didn't make up a timetable or what, just a small reminder in my head that i have to finish so and so topics at so and so time. Usually i fix it between salat time. It's easy, read all what u can read, and when the salat time come, stop and do ur prayer, then continue ur study back. Hah! (Well, i don't get to cover everything, but at least there's something i read between the salat time).


U have no more time left, so focus! This is hard if u have friends/housemates who love to talk. But alhamdulillah, i have a very understanding friends (cuz they need to focus too! =D). Before u start reading, close your eyes for 7 minutes and empty ur mind from anything and put ur intention towards the topics u wanna study, then bismillah... (this is how the ulema do, according to my murabbi-why 7 minutes? I have no idea).

Be smart

This is just a mere reminding to myself. Don't read EVERYTHING. Read only what u need. If u want to read EVERYTHING and know more, u should study earlier. better play on the safe side...


1. Don't study on ur bed (this is common, unless u can avoid sleeping =D)
2. Make sure ur stomach not empty and not too full. Either u can't focus becuz u're too hungry or u're too sleepy.
3. Dont forget to make du'a before and after studying- it helps u spiritually, insyaAllah.
4. Take care of your sleep time and eat proper food unless u're a hardcore survivor who love to go against the natural.

IK : This post is just for my reminder, in case i will forgot how i use to study and i hope it'll be much useful to others too, if not more, least. Out of all, i just wanna say that i'm not doing my very best, i'm not studying really hard, so gotta improve it somehow - insyaAllah, in next year war!

Oh, and here are some theories i learned from physiology - tell u about why we need to start studying earlier. Hope it migh be of some help to you. Until now, salam.

Panic b4 exam? What's the cause?

Assalamualaikum, have been thinking about why u're always panic b4 exams?Here's some information i gained through physiology lecture, it is one of my usual, complex syllibus for the subject but somehow i found it to be really interesting, though and maybe i can share it with u.....if not much, least.

The topic for the lecture is Emotion (I told ya, even the topic made me wanna listen).
U see, there's a lot of theory made by a lot of famous scientists (whom i have never heard b4, believe me!) about emotion, what it is, what control it..and so on. Well, the lecturer (for whom i admire his way of lecturing) told us, there are 4 theories, and i'm interested in the last one....for which i'm sure u will too (well that may depend on how i'm explaining it to you, i'll try somehow, InsyaAllah).

This theory, created by George (who died in a car accident in Moscow) and A. Kositsky, a Russian physiologist (see i told ya, never heard the name b4) is called INFORMATION THEORY OF EMOTION.

Well, let start it like this, they somehow created a formula (which remind me of the add maths and calculus i've long left behind). They said that "State of Tension" is a formation of reason ST=f(InEnTn-IaEaTa).

ST= State Of Tension

Whew....ok, it works like this..for example, u will have a very important exams (let us not state the times first). If u will have a lot of available time to study than is necessary, that is better, rather than burning the midnight oil. Well, so the lesser the difference the better the state. According to them, there are 4 stage of emotion:

1st stage - AMA (Attention, Mobilization, Activity)
Students examination - 10 days b4 exam (they'll have a lot of time, can get a lot of information and a lot of energy too).

2nd stage - Stenic Negative Emotion
Students examination - 2 days b4 exam (lack of time, information and energy), result in irritation, rage, anger.

3rd stage - Negative Astenic Emotion
Students examination - 1 night b4 exam (even less time...) result in sorrow, fear, horrow.

4th stage - breakdown, neurosis
Students failed - (fx of disease-breakdown of nervous system-crazy)

So, the easiest factor to be plan is Time (T). Start earlier, don't waiste ur time, u'll get enough information....better be in the first stage...(it's a no wonder when we heard about students committing suicide, killing teachers, friends, parents-cuz they're tension!). As a matter of fact, this theory is not only for student, it can be anyone, anybody as for example, a weekly magazine publisher with oncoming deadline, juz anybody!

Fahimtum? I hope u will understand (i'm not such a good at explaining things). Good luck and remember, plan earlier! As the saying goes MAN JADDA WA JADA

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Whoa... Prince Waleed's 38th car

Saudi Prince Waleed Bin Talal's diamond studded $4.8m SL600 Mercedes. It happens to be the Prince's 38th car. Some people have all the fun.

IK : This will do to add some xtra luxurious effect for my blog background. What d'u think?
(for more clear view of this pics, click the title post)

Sunday, June 25, 2006

An Open Letter to an Israeli Settler

In the hustle and bustle struggling trough my last exam -Physiology, i stumbled onto this....

by Edna Yaghi

"Your past is not your potential. In any hour you can choose to liberate the future." –Marilyn Ferguson

I come in peace. In my hand I hold an olive branch, above me flies the dove that symbolizes the possibility of a brighter tomorrow for both you and me.

I am the daughter of the ancient Canaanites. My forefathers have been living on this land you now call yours for thousands of years. There was a time not so long ago when my people and your people lived together and shared the same dreams. Now your dreams have become my people’s nightmares.

Your government encourages settlers like you to come and live on my land, outside of Israel proper. From the hilltops that belong to my people, you take pride in shooting at my neighbors and me while we farm our land. My small stone house is riddled with bullet holes. At night my parents and I cannot sleep and my little brothers and sisters wake up in the dead of night with bouts of screams and their small bodies heavy with sweat. A few days ago, our neighbor’s daughter was killed at home. She was my best friend. While she was sleeping, some Israeli soldiers perched on top of the hills where your settlement is, opened fire on her house. A bullet hit her in her heart and struck her dead instantly. Even in death she looked beautiful. I spent the rest of that night crying for my friend Areej.

The Israeli government encourages settlers like you to live on more and more of my land and the land of my people. You are exempt from military service, but receive military training in order to kill us better. You are paid money to exploit us and to make sure we live in constant fear. Your reprisals against our uprisings are lethal, swift and without mercy. Inspite of this, the other day my little brother bravely declared, "The settlers can do what they want to our house. I’m not leaving."

But my little brother deserves more than a perforated house to live in and the fate of the pogrom of him and his people.

As you sit on top of our occupied hills looking down on us with contempt, I stare back at you with a multitude of questions spiraling through my mind. I mean you no harm. Surely you have a wife and children of your own. I wonder where you came from and why you came here now to take my father’s and my forefather’s land away from my family and me. Would you like it if someone came and took away your home and shot and killed your wife and children? Surely a wrong committed against a Gentile is as wrong as one committed against a Jewish settler. I should not be punished for the suffering of your people that happened way before I was born. I can’t understand why you hate me and my people so.

Whatever you and your people may have suffered generations ago is not my fault. I bear you no malice. I just want to live in peace.

We believe in the same God. Our God is the God of justice and He hates tyranny and oppression. He would never condone your killing of my people and me so that you can take our place on the land that is ours.

I urge you to put down your gun and forsake your hate. Let us live in peace together and build a better tomorrow for the children of the future. A future where Jewish and Palestinian children will be able to play and laugh together. A future where you guns will no longer shoot down innocent civilians like my friend Areej.

You have sold your conscience. Please do not sell your soul.

IK : Say whatever u wanna say, tell them whatever is it in ur mind, ask whatever is it that confused u, but be known that for sure they will never ever understand.

"Such are they whom Allah has cursed, so that he has made them deaf and blinded in their sight.Do they not then think deeply in the Qur'an, or are their hearts locked up?Verily, those who have turned back as disbelievers after the guidance has been manifested to them--Shaytan has beautified for them (their false hopes), and Allah prolonged their term.This is because they said to those who hate what Allah has sent down: "We will obey you in part of the matter." But Allah knows their secrets.Then how will it be when the angel will take their souls at death, smiting their faces and backs?That is because they followed that which angered Allah and hated that which pleased Him. So, He made their deeds fruitless."

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Until Now...

Hush! I will be having my exams in 8 days time. Adrenalin Rush! Three exams altogether, so do pray for me. And i won't open my notebook, not until i finish my exams (well, i hope so =>). So, there will be no post for yet another 2/3 weeks. (Did i just say that? Okay, we'll see...)

20th of June - Phylosophy
23th of June - Biochemistry
24th of June - Physiology

Please make du'a for me.

Until now, salam.

A Bond Of Love Survive

Yesterday we went to a ceremony specially held for the graduates of CSMU, Ukraine at the AHRAR Islamic Center. Well, NOT ALL the graduates, that would be too much. Only the ARAB graduates, eight of them altogether.

We're invited to come by our naqib, Dr Abdul Wahid Abdus Soleh (now we can call him doctor =>) who had had his graduation day on that very same day. A big congratulation from us, u've done it!

But this would mean another thing to us. Yeah, we won't see him again, we won't sit together in halaqah and discuss al-ilm, we won't get to listen to his good advice. Rather sad though, because he will go back to his country, Jordan and serve as a doctor there.

Whatever life must go on, we have another 4 years to go before we finish our study and call ourselves doctor. =>

About our naqib, he is like our brother here whom we'll never ask for more. It all started when we were called to form a group of halaqah. But he's not long with us, we met him in our second year of study while he's already in his final year, the year that he actually finished his study. (well, he's done as a matter of fact).Yet, in the very short time, we've built a very beautiful bond of ukhwah especially between ourselves, me, Aisyah, Sakeenah, Atiqah and Farhana. Honestly, i've never felt that close with my friend, not before we met him. He taught us to love each other, to trust, to help and to have faith because of Allah. He always advice us to always do our best, because we're future muslim doctor and it's not an easy task to become one.

May Allah bless him and may he success in whatever he do, InsyaAllah.
As he always said, love in Allah is an endless love, so may the bond of love that we've built because of Allah survive!

Abdul Wahid, giving advice to us.

"Promise me that you will do your best"

21st century - Doomsdays for dummies

A friend of mine post this in the friendster. Something to ponder about. Sit and have a think....

In the 21st Century...

Our communication - Wireless

Our dress - Topless

Our telephone - Cordless

Our cooking - Fireless

Our youth - Jobless

Our food - Fatless

Our labour - Effortless

Our conduct - Worthless

Our relationships - Loveless

Our attitude - Careless

Our feelings - Heartless

Our politics - Shameless

Our education - Valueless

Our follies - Countless

Our arguments - Baseless

Our Boss - Brainless

Our Job - Thankless

Our Salary - Very less

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Are You Religious?

So i was stunt by the question. Am i religious? What's that supposed to mean? In what context the answer should be? Is this person who asked me this question isn't religious? Thoughtfully, i'll say, every muslim should be religious, so why is there a must to ask such question to another muslim? Afraid to make friend with someone religious? Or is this one of the question of 21st century? Cetainly i'm confused. So, i checked my PC Dictionary to make sure my Wernicke's Area is working properly (Although it is for understanding SPOKEN language), and not deceiving me.

So, the Word Web tell me :
A member of a religious order who is bound by vows of poverty and chastity and obedience. Having or showing belief in and reverence for a deity.
e.g "a religious man"; "religious attitude".

Okay, so i concluded that 'religious' mean someone who really have faith (iman) thru and thru and someone who is obedient with his/her religion rules (sharia'h in Islam).

So, i checked 'having IMAN'(or religious) in the Holy Quran :

Well, a lot if u ask me, here's some for example (u should open ur tafseer, cuz i couldn't paste the ayah here).

(2:66), (2:285), (57:8), (3:110), (5:93), (3:179), (34:52), (40:7), (42:18), (4:162)

And i get it, yes the question was RIGHT somehow. There are people who are religious and not religious. Even if they're MUSLIMS. And being a muslim, u should know the 6 'Arkanul Iman'. U're not yet a religious person if u don't believe in ALLAH, Malaikah, the Kitab (Taurat, Injil, Zabur, Quran), Rasul and Anbiya', Yaumul Qiamah and Qadha' Qadr.

But every muslims do believe these if u ask me. Yet, where is this question leading us? I was left with a question mark right there in one of my newly form synapse (as i was reading Biochemistry and have to memorize complex structure when this question came).

Yes, they DO believe, but they don't understand depthly the meaning and the demand of 'Arkanul Iman'. So, are they not religious enough to be call religious?

Yet, Allah has said that u're not consider religious unless u're put on test. (29:2)

So, the question of if u're religious or not religious, do we have the right to answer it, or it is He who knows?

How can we know if we're religious enough or not? By our deeds? By our way of talking? By our cloths that we wear? By memorizing some verses from the Quran and act as if we know it all? We don't know, right? But we can tell that some people are religious when we see one. (Although we couldn't judge the book by it's cover, still u can't deny that if u see/speak to somebody, u know that this person somehow is religious). But deep inside, only Allah can judge. Wallahua'lam.

So, how can i answer this question?
Righteously, i don't know. To say that i've put under test, is something beyond my normal capability to think (maybe yes, maybe not). To tell that i've passed the test given also is beyond my boundary to judge. And so, only one humble answer left remain...

Wallahua'lam. Only He knows.

*to those who're not familiar with this (5:89)---> means surah 5, ayah 89.

Monday, June 12, 2006

The Beautiful Muslimah Hijab

I really love this poem.

What do you see when you look at me?
Do you see someone limited, or someone free?
All some people can do is just look and stare,
Simply because they can't see my hair.
Others think I am controlled and uneducated.
They think that I am limited and not liberated,
They are so thankful that they are not me,
Because they would like to remain 'free'.
Well free isn't exactly the word I would've used,
Describing women who are cheated on and abused.
They think that I do not have opinions or a voice,
They think that being hooded isn't my choice,
They think that the hood makes me look caged,
That my husband or dad are totally outraged,
All they can do is look at me in fear,
And in my eye there is a tear.
Not because I have been stared at or made fun of,
But because people are ignoring the One up above.
On the day of judgment they will be the fools,
Because they were too ashamed to play by their own rules.
Maybe the guys won't think I am a cutie,
But at least I am filled with more inner beauty.
See I have declined from being a guy's toy,
Because I won't let myself be controlled by a boy,
Real men are able to appreciate my mind,
And aren't busy looking at my behind.
Hooded girls are the ones really helping the Muslim cause,
The role that we play definitely deserves applause
I will be recognized because I am smart and bright,
And because some people are inspired by my sight.
The smart ones are attracted by my tranquility,
In the back of their mind they wish they were me,
We have the strength to do what we think is right,
Even if it means putting up a life long fight.
You see we are not controlled by a mini skirt and tight shirt,
We are given only respect, and never treated like dirt.
So you see, we are the ones that are free and liberated,
We are not the ones that are sexually terrorized and violated.
We are the ones that are free and pure,
We're free of STD's that have no cure,
So when people ask you how you feel about the hood,
Just sum it up by saying 'baby its all good'

Submitted by a Muslim sister who is proud to be wearing a Hijab.
May Almighty Allah Bless you all.

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You never know what they're passing everyday...

I received this mail from a friend, really touch my heart, really sad to see how muslim friends survive everyday just trying to go to school, i don't know what's wrong with just going to school. They're just a bunch of kids!!

the journey starts here in Hebron
the children starting their day going to school to be faced with a checkpoint:

the soldiers prevent them from passing and give them orders to go home

the children try to challenge the soldiers and pass the checkpoint

even younger ones try but in vain :
they end up having their classes in the street by the checkpoint

what an amazing spirit

the boys try a little bit harder they got shot at, and some arrested

yet in their eyes you see determination and dignity

We are comfotable with what we have, but do they?

Saturday, June 10, 2006

A little too overthinking


So the World Cup fever has started. (I saw a boy brought some wiring stuff, i think it's an ariel to put up with a tv set somewhere). Yet, i'm not a football fan. So, i don't felt the madness of this event. => (They told me German won over Costa Rico 4-2)

I got this through my YM offline messages :

A new nasheed group was form under the Telaga Biru Sdn. Bhd. Company. Well, another to add up to the world of nasheeds. What's interesting is that this group consist of three members who are hafeezs (MasyaAllah) from the Darul Quran Institutes and a wannabe doctor. Their musics are mostly based on percussion and they called themselves Kahsfi. So, good luck guys!

New home cleaner are out! Japan always the first to invent something really extraordinary. Why am i talking about home cleaner? Coz i'm very impressed with the invention, else i always have the same problem too. Thanx to this friend of mine who always seems to know what's on my mind. Hah! Review!. You can watch the video here.

While surfing through and through peoples blog, I found this really interesting one which use only cartoons to express feelings. Although the cartoons not really look like a professional drawing do, yet they're still cartoons. Voila! Thumbs up mister!
Click here to see.

A little words about my naqib who has finished his final year exams yesterday. Well, after receiving his SMS telling us he passed the last subject, we all wish him a hearty congratulation and so he is officially a doctor now. We can't wait to see him at the graduation day, though. He is our first naqib but he didn't stayed long with us to share a lot more knowledge due to his current studies and upcoming exams which now he had successfully passed with flying colours and yet, he is like our brother here. He will be back to Jordan to work there, i guess. So, all the best, bro! (Jealousy embraced us for we still have 4 years more to go to really become a doctor).

And so i'm counting the days towards the 2nd year State Examinations. Two more unbearable weeks to go. Biochemistry, Physiology and i-can't-believe-this-subject Phylosophy.

Make dua for me please. Ameen.

Monday, June 05, 2006

MaKe iT reAl

....reMinD Me......

1. Start off each day with 'adhkaar al-istiyqaadh'
(waking up Supplications), thanking ALLAH for
waking up in good shape.

2. Put ALLAH first in your life.

3. Broaden your horizons - learn 5 new verses from
the Quran every day, travel to pray far in the
mosque to brighten your day, take up a booklet
having supplications and read them.

4. Salat Dhuha (salat after sunrise).

5. If someone says something mean to you, just
shrug it off and dismiss it in a friendly, laidback
manner, and pray that ALLAH shall forgive them.

6. When you get angry, remember ALLAH, and
how short and worthless life is to waste in being

7. Remember that you can never have too many
friends, but you can have few quality friends that
help you fulfill the purpose of your creation (i.e. live
for ALLAH).

8. When you're happy, try to share your happiness
with others. Thank ALLAH for that, and pray its

9. When something bad or embarrassing happens
to you, just think that it could always be worse,
remember the reward of patience, and thank
ALLAH that it's not worse than it is.

10. Do something extra of goodness once in a
while, like feeding a poor person, or caressing an
orphan's head.

11. Never stop believing that you can win ALLAH's
love and thus work for it. Then you can win the love
of ALLAH's slaves.

12. Spend some time thinking of ALLAH's amazing

13. Always love those who love ALLAH
unconditionally. This way you will ensure that you
live for ALLAH, love for ALLAH, and hate for
ALLAH (those who are enemies of ALLAH).

14. Find the righteous ways to express yourself,
and if you think that what you are about to say
shall cause no benefit, maintain silence (this is

15. Every now and then, give yourself a break.
Play sports, give time to your family, friends, but
always remember ALLAH and watch that ALLAH
is watching you.

16. Pray for blessing to come to those being lost,
and pray to ALLAH to guide them to the right path.

17. Hug your parents, kiss their hands and heads
and always obey but stop at ALLAH's orders.

18. Smile to everyone, for your smile makes a big
difference to him or her and you are rewarded.

19. Forgive, forget and smile.

20. Tears are not for women only... tears are for all
human beings with feelings remaining in them.
Don't restrain your tears when remembering
ALLAH. (This is so true...)

21. When people criticize your actions and effort,
revise your actions and see if they please ALLAH
or no. If they do; then ignore and remember how
the Prophet (SAW) and the Sahabah were
criticized, made fun of and even physically
harmed, so have patience.

22. Read the Quran daily and try to have a
schedule for completing it as much as you could.
As you open the Quran daily, read with observing,
not just passing your eyes through the words.

23. Don't let popularity go to your head, for it never
lasts and you may lose from it more than gain.

24. Never look down on anybody, for, to ALLAH,
they may be better than you.

25. Send this to all brothers with the intention of
having a healthy society living for ALLAH and pray.